I am well into day 4 of this challenge and I’m doing fine so far. I haven’t updated daily because I don’t want to bore anyone with, “Still doing okay- see you tomorrow,” type posts so I’ll probably limit myself to posting about the challenges when I really feel as if I have something worth sharing. I honestly wasn’t sure how much internal growth and dialogue would exist on this challenge but, as usual, there is always something new to learn about myself when I’m willing.
Yesterday temptations seemed to be everywhere. I guess temptations is a strong word because I wasn’t so much tempted as simply aware enough not to eat absentmindedly. I realize that I have gotten to a point where I was justifying eating A LOT of carbs by telling myself that “once-in-a-while” is okay. The trouble was that I wasn’t really keeping track and once in a while had become a regular habit. I would grab something here and there without thinking and later wouldn’t necessarily remember and grab something else. This challenge is helping me become aware of that.
This challenge has already helped me realize that choosing low-carb foods is not always my first instinct. Just yesterday this was demonstrated when:
- I thought (again) about toast with my eggs.
- I was hungry after work and needed a snack, something with carbs would have been the cheapest, easiest option and was what I thought of first.
- I went to Panera while my daughter was in dance class so I could use the wi-fi. I just had coffee but I really wanted a muffin to go with it.
- I made pizza for dinner. I always make my own crustless or alternative crust version but often I’ll have a regular piece anyway. Or I’ll absently eat the crusts Jace leaves on his plate.
- Robbie had some cookies before bed and I almost reached to have one.
In each of these instances I had to consciously stop and make a decision not to eat those things because it is just not instinctual for me at this point. So, I guess what I’ve learned so far is that the real challenge isn’t deprivation; it’s awareness.