After just a few days of keeping a food journal I’ve already rediscovered something that I keep forgetting- I eat when I’m bored. This is a problem because I’m also easily bored. I’ve always been this way and I think it must be genetic because I hear it from my daughter frequently. I see now why my mother was so exasperated when I’d complain, “I’m BORED!”
It isn’t just a feeling of mild discontent- it’s a feeling of near desperation to do something INTERESTING. I feel physically tense and frustrated when I’m bored, I get short tempered, I feel anxious and trapped. However, the truth is that in my current situation there isn’t much to be done about it. I can’t be placated with a walk on the road I’ve walked a thousand times. Or with housework. I need novelty. It’s one of the reasons I love travel so much- even a day trip will bring exposure to new ideas and ways of seeing the world. Unfortunately, I don’t have the resources to get that as often as I seem to need/want it. I try finding satisfaction in day trips but even those cost money (especially in the winter) and require a lot of driving from where we live.
So, I developed the very unhealthy habit of eating that uncomfortable feeling of boredom. I wish knowing that was enough to be able to just stop.